INTRODUCTION (blah, blah, blah)

Well.

You know, as a 'writer', I've been taught to never start any sentence with the words 'well', 'and' or 'but'. In this blog, those rules will not apply. This blog is meant to be a diary of sorts, to documents the every day challenges of a fabulous, beautiful, fat girl. That girl would be me, of course. If you hang on for the ride, you might find that I'm rather charming and very easy to love. Or, you could completely hate me. Either way, I'm here so you're gonna have to deal with it.

The reason I wanted to start this blog is a simple one. I'm sick of beautiful plus size women being looking down upon simply because we are, let's be honest here, fat. It doesn't matter what words you use to describe us: fat, overweight, chubby, plus size, big boned - it all means the same thing. Large and in charge. Which is exactly how I live my life. Everything about my life isn't always glitz and glam, don't get me wrong, I have a fair share of highs and lows. And in between all that? One hot mess. I just celebrated my 25th birthday and although life is a bit unsettled right now, I still feel better than ever. Since, the last 25 years brings us all right up to speed.

Right now, in this very moment, I'm looking back and feeling better. I feel like I've come a long way in the past few years, from who I was back then to who I am now. I don't feel like I'm no longer such a drama queen. I was selfish, manipulative, ignorant and self-absorbed, and now I feel different. Granted I still have some of those qualities, but I think everyone does. I'm still selfish, but on a lesser scale and only when I need to be. I no longer manipulate because I no longer need to. I'll always be ignorant in some sense, about some things, but I think everyone is, really. Not that it justifies anything, but none the less. As for being self-absorbed, I guess I merely shifted in that department. I've become a lot more confident in myself. I'm more determined than ever to be beautiful as I am, more determined than ever to prove to the world that plus size/overweight/fat girls can be beautiful, too. No matter what society says, being a 'larger-than-average' woman these days still is not accepted. They still get those looks when they order food at a restaurant, they still get those looks when they are shopping in the 'non-plus size' section at a store, or when they are dancing, or on stage and I hate it. I am tired of men (and sometimes woman) making oversized woman feel like they aren't good enough, or that they aren't beautiful, or shouldn't be treated the same way.

Which is why I've gone on a one woman revolution! I don't hold myself back, I don't let other people tell me how I'm suppose to feel about myself. You bet your ass when I walk into a bar, onto a dance floor, into any public place, I hold my head up high and know that I am just as beautiful as the next girl, whether I'm bigger or smaller than her. Presenting myself well, giving off just as much confidence as I feel within myself so that others can see it will hopefully inspire others to be confident, or maybe make someone else change their mind. I guess I just want the world to know that you can be fat and fabulous, your body type does not define who you are. But then again, maybe I'm a big dreamer, who knows.

With that being said, I should probably turn this Ke$ha song down (fyi - "Blah Blah Blah") and get back to work. This introduction is quite a rough one, I know that much at least, but just give me some time to smooth out the edges - have faith that this blog will just as fabulous as I am.

Until next time!